Marion Princk is an incest survivor - the abuse ended in 2006 with her father¿s death at age 31. Until then, she had been fighting unconsciously, was closer to death than life, and hid this behind a carefully crafted lifelong illusion of herself. Because even as a toddler, she learned that revealing any information to the outside world would mean even more hell, violence, and fear. Now that the main perpetrator was dead, the cruel memories could no longer be held back. She was faced with the choice of freeing herself through suicide or building her life according to her own rules for the first time. Her conscious struggle for life, identity, and self-determination in a world previously dominated by perpetrators began. It was an extremely painful journey with incredible highs and lows, because the protective shield of repression could no longer be maintained. Ms. Princk decided to seek help from a victim protection program. Her life was turned upside down. She lost her professional career, her friends, her entire life, which she had built up with all her strength despite everything, far away from her double life as a sex slave and her father's "replacement wife." Today, 18 years later, she understands why she had suffered under many seemingly indefinable psychological, physical, and interpersonal problems, and why she inexplicably experienced similar violence and sexual assault outside her family time and again. Adaptation and a deep-rooted fear of death had shaped her life among sexual offenders. She could only pretend to be self-confident, because deep down she knew that if anyone approached her in a similar way, exerting pressure, violence, or even sexuality, she would be unable to act. Even loving feelings triggered dangerous, perpetrator-loyal trauma reactions that saved her life as a child and for a long time during the abuse. Now it was a matter of protecting this trauma-induced vulnerability and, ideally, learning to heal it. However, since her mentally ill